Three New Drawings and A Kakashi Dog Story

Hello, dear readers! Here are some things I've been thinking about:

* What is the appeal of watching "un-boxing" videos? I can understand when it comes to subscription type boxes where people may want an idea of the type of products they could be receiving. But when a person sits down with his or her purchases and starts a video like they're presenting some treasure to the world, I can't help but wonder, "Why?" Original art or a collector's item or something rare and unusual would be interesting. Sharing a new designer purse or an expensive piece of jewelry or brand name shoes feels like showing off in my opinion. To each their own I suppose. If you enjoy that sort of thing, power to ya!

* I mentioned in my last post an interest in dating again. A few days after I wrote that, I went on a date! It was fun and awesome and we clicked; I felt like there was hope in the universe again for women like me not wrapped up in this digital, impersonal, and self absorbed world we live in! But the date was too premature for him...he is still going through his divorce and it's too soon for him...I totally respect and understand that. Still. A big whomp whomp sad trumpet for me. I've been thinking about dating apps...something I felt strongly about avoiding...but I've been considering it now in an attempt to open my mind to all possibilities. Yay or nay?

* Pretty sure I'm about to jump into trying to sell my art. I'm not ready in that I don't have everything I need to operate like I want...such as mat boards and archival sleeves and such...but my finances are incredibly terrible with no relief in sight and I don't have time for piddly little here and there solutions soooo...it's time to go big or go home.......and hopefully don't end up even more broke. That's not grammatically correct is it? Flows better that way.

* Finding my new groove with my art finally. However, my new technique appears to be starting multiple drawings at once...we'll see how that goes...I'll share the current creations below in a sec.

* Kakashi was sick for a couple of days and I was a mess. I had a nightmare probably more than a year ago that I was walking him and he was lagging behind. It was completely unlike him and when he abruptly stopped and laid down, I immediately burst into tears knowing that something was terribly wrong. It broke my heart and even after waking I couldn't shake the loss; my then husband pretty much made fun of me for it; Kakashi was only ever a dog to him. Anyway! He started acting strangely a couple of evenings ago, and when I went to walk him for the last time that night, he was lagging behind and eventually stopped and laid down...just like in the bad dream. I got him up and back home and quickly started praying and crying...the crying turned into sobbing and the praying turned into pleading. This may sound overly dramatic, but I believe anyone who truly loves their pets like family will understand. A visit to the vet and some additions to his daily meals plus pain medicine has reset him and he's back to his happy self. I do believe there was some God work in there too...because it seemed much worse leaving the vet without any clear answers.

So! I'll leave y'all with the 3 drawings I have going and a little snapshot of Kakashi and me working on this blog entry...

Hugs and love, my lovelies!
The Ro Fo Sho

Depression, Divorce, Discovery

Why?! I can't go to sleep at night or nap during the day without thinking about all of the things I want to write about and how I would write about these things; and then I get in front of my computer screen, and all of the things simply vanish. Where are the things, brain?! This is frustrating. Maybe it's because I don't write as often as I should or make lists as compulsively as I once did; I don't know. Let's go with a bullet type list of sorts and see how it evolves.

* I am so broke. I haven't been this financially unstable in years. It's scary, and I don't see myself getting ahead of it for a very very...very long time.

* I want to share more about the end of my 11 years relationship (including 6 years married) with my ex husband. I desperately need closure or something.

* My ex husband stopped loving me and caring for me around the end of 2014, and recently I've been wondering if he just wasn't attracted to me anymore. That being said, will another man find me attractive in this new single life?

* Single life at 35 after the end of a more than decade long relationship is crazy. Men are weird. I have received more pictures of penises in the the last couple of months than I have in my whole life. And do people even date anymore?! I just want to go on freakin' flippin' date! I don't want to see erections at this stage of the single scene! Is that too much to ask for?

* I plan on writing more about this next chapter of my life under the title, "Depression, Divorce, Discovery."

Depression began altering my life more than 20 years ago and has been a continuous topic here in this little corner of the internet world since the beginning. Divorce has been the most recent life changing event of course which is challenging enough on it's own; but as a woman with mental illness, there were and sometimes still are several moments where I had and have wondered how on earth I will ever fully get on the other side of this event. Discovery. Talk about discovery holy moly! This is a brand new journey, dear readers, and I have so much more to share.

Hugs and love, my lovelies!

Still here,
The Ro Fo Sho

No More Naps and a Cute Little Monkey

I suppose I just took a leave of absence from here. I do apologize. It wasn't intentional; I promise. My last day of work ended up being right before Memorial Weekend, and that was a nice arrangement, but it meant a weekend full of socializing, which is great and wonderful, but time consuming. Please excuse my run on sentence if you will. Thanks! After a full weekend of friends, I had a messy apartment to put back in order...I also had a lot of re-hydrating to do if ya know what I mean. Ha! Sigh...I'm old. Anyway! I've also been super super crazy crazy tired! My theory is that when I had to get up and go to work 30 or so hours a week, I was thus forced to deal with the fatigue and push through it. Now that I'm back to my full time housewife role, I can easily take naps instead of ignoring the sleepiness. My intention for post photo lab life was to consider my house chores top priority and to also make The Ro Fo Sho my daily "job" so to speak. So, initially I failed at that. But! Now I'm rested, and I really just don't have time for naps! Oh man, I have so much to do...it's time for lists and battle plans once again...and a really short amount of time to figure it all out and get everything straightened, planned, scheduled, and organized.

Sigh. Again. I'm old. Can I please have a personal assistant? Unlimited amounts of money would be helpful too.

Well anywho! Here are some topics I've got lined up for the next few days here!

* Depression and how my attitude and "advice" thus far has been a little too vague.
* My husband's upcoming deployment and the numerous "work ups" leading up to it.
* Starting a new drawing...oil pastel on canvas...does that work out well?
* How I want pink hair...for reals.

Okay, that's enough to start with! I'm happy to be back and blogging...hopefully I can be more prepared with my next leave of absence so I'm not silent so long again!

Thanks for sticking with me and putting up with my run on sentences and overall indifference to proper sentence structure and such. Hugs and love, my lovelies!

High Five!
Amy

p.s. Sometimes I can't find a relevant photo for an entry, so today I would like to begin the "random photo" addition to the blog...a photo that may have no relevance to the topics we discuss, but a photo that can be enjoyed none the less. Today's random photo shall be..."Cute Little Monkey."